I’m back and here to stay this time. I’ve decided that I need to get back to the basics of this life and back to my first loves. My life has become so busy that I have neglected some of the most important things in this life. All the things that I have been doing are good things, but they have robbed me of precious time to devote to the things that really matter and have kept me at arms distance from my purpose in this life.
For several weeks now we have been so busy that I we wake up and start rushing through breakfast and hurry to get ready so we can get out of the door. Me and the kids have a great group of friends and everyday we are away from home and attending play dates. Each day we are with a different group of moms and tots, but I have got to find the balance. I know that it is healthy for me and the kiddos to get together with other families, but my first proirity has to be my home and my family. Afterall I want to be a stay at HOME mom, not a drag-my-kids-all-over-town-every-day-and-never-take-care-of -the-home-front-mom. I need to find a way to have the best of both worlds. Basically I am back at the same challenge I’m always at…finding a balance. We dearly love all our friends, but too much of a good thing always means that other areas are not getting the time and devotion needed.
We are still going to get out and play a few times a week, but my new goal for us is to stay home together at least two days a week. With each day being so jam packed, we can’t possibly fit every thing in and I see myself moving slowly away from the kind of mom that I once was, the kind of mom that I loved being. The past month has been a whirlwind, but I’m getting control of our schedule before our schedule gets control of us.
This past month I have missed just playing in the floor with the kids. I have missed all those sweet slow days where we stay in our pjs and cuddle and read books all day. (We discontinued our TV service several months ago and it has been the best thing ever, but now I have managed to find a way to fill our days up even more.) I miss doing crafts with the kids (if you know me at all you are shocked that I ever do crafts as I am not naturally crafty.)
Part of me just wants to start living a minimalistic lifestyle, but then I realize that that is just another example of how hard of a time I have finding a balance. I’ve always been an all or nothing sort of gal. I want to get back to more alone time with the kids. Maybe I am selfish, but they are only little for a fleeting season of life and I want to have as much face to face time with them as I can. I’ve been sharing them, and myself, too much for the past several weeks.
And last, but not at all least. I have been so busy that I have slowly but progressivly spent less time with the Lord. This changed today. I never have a day without Him, but my time with Him has been getting shorter and shorter as I have tried to fit too much into one day. If a quieter life is pleasing to the Lord, then that is our goal. We used to have time to turn worship music on and me and the kids would sing and dance for an entire CD. I miss that. Just know that tomorrow after breakfast I will not be answering my phone because I will be in my pjs singing and dancing with my kids. Can’t wait.
Oh, and one last thing. I have missed blogging. I love to blog and to read other blogs. I just literally have not had the time. I’m looking forward to catching back up on all the blogs of my cyber friends.
It is so good to be back.



















